I am honored
to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities
in the world. I never graduated
from college. Truth be told, this
is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories
from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first
story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped
out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a
drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?
It started
before I was born. My biological
mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me
up for adoption. She felt very
strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all
set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they
decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting
list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected
baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My
biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from
college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption
papers. She only relented a few
months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years
later I did go to college. But I
naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my
working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the
value in it. I had no idea what I
wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure
it out. And here I was spending
all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust
that it would all work out OK. It
was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions
I ever made. The minute I dropped
out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin
dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't
all romantic. I didn't have a
dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles
for the 5 ¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town
every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple.I
loved it. And much of what I
stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be
priceless later on. Let me give
you one example:
Reed College
at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the
country.Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was
beautifully hand calligraphed. Because
I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take
a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I
learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space
between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical,
artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it
fascinating.
None of this
had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were
designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with
beautiful typography. If I had
never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had
multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac,
it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would
have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might
not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect
the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking
backwards ten years later.
Again, you
can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking
backwards. So you have to trust
that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your
gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This
approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second
story is about love and loss.
I was lucky
- I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz
and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple
had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $ 2 billion company with
over 4000 employees. We had just
released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just
turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company
you started? Well, as Apple grew
we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me,
and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future
began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors
sided with him. So at 30 I was
out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire
adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really
didn't know what to do for a few months. I
felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had
dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce
and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I
even thought about running away from the valley.But something slowly began to
dawn on me - I still loved what I did. The
turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still
in love. And so I decided to
start over.
I didn't see
it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing
that could have ever happened to me. The
heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner
again, less sure about everything. It
freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the
next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar,
and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds
first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful
animation studio in the world. In
a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the
technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful
family together.
I'm pretty
sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I
guess the patient needed it. Sometimes
life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't
lose faith. I'm convinced that
the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as
it is for your lovers. Your work
is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly
satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is
to love what you do. If you
haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't
settle.As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it
just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.
My third
story is about death.
When I was
17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if
it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an
impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the
mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my
life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the
answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to
change something.
Remembering
that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help
me make the big choices in life. Because
almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of
embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death,
leaving only what is truly important. Remembering
that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking
you have something to lose. You
are already naked. There is no
reason not to follow your heart.
About a year
ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I
had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my
pancreas. I didn't even know what
a pancreas was. The doctors told
me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I
should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and
get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids
everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few
months. It means to make sure
everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your
family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with
that diagnosis all day. Later
that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat,
through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and
got a few cells from the tumor. I
was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the
cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be
a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.
This was the
closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few
more decades. Having lived
through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death
was a useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants
to die. Even people who want to
go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And
yet death is the destination we all share. No
one has ever escaped it. And that
is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of
Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for
the new. Right now the new is
you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and
be cleared away. Sorry to be so
dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is
limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is
living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others'
opinions drown out your own inner voice. And
most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you
truly want to become.Everything else is secondary.
When I was
young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which
was one of the bibles of my generation. It
was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park,
and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before
personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters,
scissors, and polaroid cameras. It
was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along:
it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and
his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it
had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your
age.On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning
country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so
adventurous. Beneath it were the
words: "Stay Hungry. Stay
Foolish. "It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for
myself. And now, as you graduate
to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
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